This page written circa 24 September, 2001.
Almost two weeks ago, the morning news brought moment-by-moment
report of terrible tragedy, as full of war as Pearl Harbor and
as close to home as the loss of JFK:
New York suffered attack of such magnitude that new age pundits
are almost certainly racing to reinterpret Nostradamus' writings in a way
that makes it look as if he predicted this to a tee.
I should be grateful for the fact that all these things will have about equal
long-term impact on me. I think I do not even know
anyone who knows anyone who died in New York, my mouth is better off than before,
the family is now quite recovered, I am in no danger of losing my job
and none of our Agilent friends are expected to take damage even if their
numbers come up. Somehow the month also saw me finish the new mantlepiece
and much progress was made on the front garden renovation.
And all these things, too, shall pass away.
In the mean time, the consequences of NY are the main topic.
What will be the long-term effect on the stock market?
What should the USA do? What should we do?
In the short term, Kay is making ANZAC biscuits for a bake sale
whose proceeds to NY via the United Way attract a company match... very
American, but hardly worthy of news.
The most odd thing to me is that these terrorists do not seem to
want anything in particular. Nobody owns up, no demands have been made.
The IRA has clear and understandable goals. Palestinians simply want
to establish Palestine. Do the guys who attacked this month just need
someone to hate, and anyone will do? The USA has unnecessarily
offensive habits of foreign interference---you can easily see how the
Prime Directive might appeal---but if this is what stirs up the hornets
one might expect to be told.
Educated Americans currently debate whether the country's
response will be excessive. Americans are known for tight-arsed
over reaction, after all. One memory recurs as I ponder how I would
have my tax dollars spent as a consequence of the attack: When Merinda
first started doing things malicious and selfish, we smacked her, but
I suspect that all I have achieved that might not have been achieved
some other way, was teaching her to smack.
Yesterday we had a thunderstorm, a rare event, and the first rain to
break the Summer. We miss thunderstorms. (Mind you, Dan and Steph miss
living with snow, which takes some imagination to appreciate.)
What do all these events have in common?
Fire in the sky---be it lightning, war, illness or losing your job---keeps
you on your toes, keeps life interesting. In Zardoz, bland immortality
gave rise to a desire for death. From Newtown, from a tenured job, from
bachelorhood, I came here. Only death stinks.
And the blade can switch behind you,
I had my own appointment with terror two days later with the dentist,
although the terror was in the anticipation not the aftermath:
The failure proved to be in a wisdom tooth that was not only unopposed
but that I knew ought to go, that took only the last 60 seconds of my
90 minute visit to vanish entirely from my mouth,
and the removal of which caused neither pain nor discomfort then or in
the next week.
Merinda and Teddy both spent the next week quite ill indeed, and
with sheets to wash and temperatures a degree below the medical-response
threshold I, and especially Kay, got way too little sleep and then our own
doses of germs.
This week, to cap off a month of shelling, Agilent had its first layoffs
ever in the 50+ years of the company's existence. Some faces I know are
doomed to disappear, and some I am doomed to continue to see,
contrary to all hope, expectation and apparently, common sense.
When you expect shells from the sky,
But you go, when it's your time.